Go without, 'til the need seeps in.

And I taught myself oxidative phosphorylation! Cause I’m so cool! And I’m so fun!

Lmao. The song I invented right now to an annoying tune while I work on my HL Bio homework.

It’s strange, isn’t it? We remember everything we want to forget and forget all the details to things we thought were the most special moments of our lives. We remember all those who hurt us, all the ones who failed us and continue to fail us, yet forget those who were constantly holding us up, those who never faltered. And most importantly, I remember you. Amid the useless facts and chemical equations and characters from my favorite books and lyrics to my favorite songs, I remember you. I remember you vividly. I remember the way you used to talk, the way you used to write, the way you used to sing, both seriously and for your own amusement and ridiculous humor. I remember your laugh, the way your voice got quiet when you were being serious, the way you listened when I struggled to explain what was wrong, my voice breaking, you were the closest to strong that I was going to find anywhere. I remember a kiss on my forehead as we parted ways, an affectionate gesture, small, but meaningful, reminding me you really did care. I remember you. The crinkle in your eyes, the smugness to your smile, the way your hair fell as you laughed and were having a good time. I remember you being special, that kind of special that no one ever replaces, and it’s not even a conscious thought or a subconscious thought. You just lie there in that memory that no one will ever touch, that memory that no one will ever replace.  I remember you for all the great things you ever did for me, all the lovely words you ever said to me. . I hardly remember you breaking my heart. Memory, it’s a strange thing, isn’t it?